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damn it, a few days ago i slipped. my dad pissed me off so i just went to the bathroom and cut my thighs. i cut like five times. not much but 2 of them were quit deep. i thought i stopped the bleeding but those two bled through my jeans. i was really stressed and pissed off, but when i cut it made me feel so calmed, like some one gave me drugs or something. i only really get that feeling when i cut deeper and more blood comes. it was so amazing, i havent had that feeling for a while, i have always stopped myself from going that deep. but it felt so good. i feel good and bad at the same time.