Dear to whoever this may concern,
I'm giving up. I tired to win over Ashley but its pointless. Why do I even bother? I will be her friend but that is all I can manage. i don't think I can even be her close friend because of all this mess. I use to watch her everyday, everytime just to see how she is doing. And to know that she is only dating this other girl to make HER happy is hurting me. Part of me think she is full of s**t. I mean....it is just to real. Then another part of me wants me to believe her. I can not picture her lying to me but...this one....it just seems so real. I think she might really love this girl...and it hurts me a lot too...
But thankfully the pain is easing away. I have Red. Though it is not tight in a knot yet, but I know we will stay together for the longest time. Everytime we break up it only last for like five minutes before we are back together again. We just can't be without each other...and he completes me like I complete him. Even if we wound up just being friends, I would not mind. He would be the only guy that I could not live without. I do love him. With all my heart and soul. And I hope he knows that.
I'm giving up. I tired to win over Ashley but its pointless. Why do I even bother? I will be her friend but that is all I can manage. i don't think I can even be her close friend because of all this mess. I use to watch her everyday, everytime just to see how she is doing. And to know that she is only dating this other girl to make HER happy is hurting me. Part of me think she is full of s**t. I mean....it is just to real. Then another part of me wants me to believe her. I can not picture her lying to me but...this one....it just seems so real. I think she might really love this girl...and it hurts me a lot too...
But thankfully the pain is easing away. I have Red. Though it is not tight in a knot yet, but I know we will stay together for the longest time. Everytime we break up it only last for like five minutes before we are back together again. We just can't be without each other...and he completes me like I complete him. Even if we wound up just being friends, I would not mind. He would be the only guy that I could not live without. I do love him. With all my heart and soul. And I hope he knows that.
