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You know those days, when you feel great?
Where you don't feel ******** up?
Where you actually feel normal?
Well, yes.
Normal.
Not as if the problems were gone, but as if they were never there......
You know those days, when you have to push yourself to get out from under the cover and comfort of your bed?
So that you can face another day?
When you think of ten different ways to end it all, before you even get to the door?
Where you feel as if you're below the bottom of the pit?
Ahh.
That glorious pit.
You don't even know you're in it until it's too late.
Until you're 20 feet under.
And the only way to get out, is to slowly kick, scratch, and scream your way up.
Inch by ******** inch......

You know those days, when you don't feel anything?
Where you feel like some monster, incapable of emotion?
Where you have to fake everything, and pray you don't get caught?
What a monster.......
You know, how everyday, you have to lie your way?
You have to make sure that everyone still thinks that you're fine?
That no one sees the pain that you go through?
That no one sees the torture you're put through?
Such a beautiful disaster.....

You know how everyday, you want to get caught?
But don't, at the same time?
How you want people to notice that something is wrong?
Really wrong?
But you don't want that to happen, at the same time?
All these pretenses......
You know how everyday, you're never caught?
When you feel a surge of pride at your brilliancy, until you remember what you're being proud of?
And then you feel as if you slipped a little lower in the pit?
Lower and lower and lower, till you're no more......