Monday, 03 October, 2005 08:16:34 PM
Down down down. That is the only direction I seem to care that I am going in. On the z, going down, yet unable to stop x and y from going forward. I have never felt so empty, metataive, and emotionless in my life. I can't even describe myself anymore. I can only describe what I once was, and even that, I barely remember. I can only think of myself like a stick of incense. Sweet, steady, and yet burning. Burning to its fate, unable to change it.
My sleep is almost willing to pass anything up. Over the past week. I gave up my pride and joy, Photography, to sleep. I gave up graphic design to sleep. To me, the world is an alarmclock with dulled bells. Bells rusted over, and ugly in appearance and sound. Not worth waking up to.
I just want to know how everything ends. Like a math problem of the real world. I was never good at Math, yet I was always good at English. One plus one equals x. x is not equal to two. Thats how I look at it. Reality is to plain and simple. I cannot handle it. I always said, "reality is for those who cannot handle fantasy". Looking at this, if I may borrow a quote from one of my favorite songs, "world so dead and dry". They may think I am childish, but at least I am wise and honorable. Thats one lesson that a textbook can't teach the world. One thing that plain, blunt, cold reality cannot teach...
Until next time...
Lord Excelsior · Tue Oct 04, 2005 @ 01:40am · 1 Comments |