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^_^ I'm a child of the God and Goddess ^_^ |
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I found myself depressed a few nights ago. It was the most depressed I have ever been in my life. With my mother's departure from life, and the death of a close friend of mine before school began. There are also other reasons, but I will not get into it. It's not relevant.
Anyway, on late Wednessday night. I found myself to be awake unable to sleep. I was thinking about so many things that have been going on in my life. I tried to close my eyes, I fell into a slight trance. I could see nothing but blackness and what appeared to be snakes and, not to be funny or anything, zombies attacking me. I instantly woke up. I shook it off as a nightmare, and tried to fall back asleep. But I had the same dream and woke up, only this time the depression and fear within me grew aswell.
I got up and I lit a stick of incense. I asked for the love of the god and goddess to show me their love and to pull me out of this depression. I tried falling asleep again, and I was attacked by snakes once more! It was somewhat lucid, so I said to myself that this could not be real. I denied it. Finally, I cried out to the Mother to save me. When I did, I saw this glowing hand reaching torwards me. I held onto it. After a few seconds I looked up and I saw an elegant woman dressed in white and green, with the most beautiful dirty-blonde hair. Before I knew it, the woman took me to a lush grove, one so perfect and untouched by man.
After this, I woke up. I was convinced that this was the goddess in her mother form. I found that the next three days, including this night, was without depression. I have felt nothing but joy and compassion for the Lord and Lady.
Earlyer tonight, I had my pentagram pendant, my sword, and my staff purified. It was a very simple spell. Something just drove me to do it. I lit insense to carry the negitivity away with the smoke. And I swear on my honor, that the faces and profiles of the maiden, the mother, and the crone, along with the horned man, showed me their faces in the insense. This was the most thrilling, and loved moment in my life. I felt as if I just wanted to reach my hands out and hug them all, but I couldent, because they only appeared to me in smoke.
In short what I am trying to say is, I will never be depressed again, for I know, I am a child of the god and goddess.
Lord Excelsior · Sun Oct 09, 2005 @ 07:02am · 2 Comments |
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