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Am I allowed to make two entries? I probably shouldn't but I'm going to anyways. 3nodding I am extremely bored. There is nothing on tv and I don't get to call Sean til 9. crying I can't call Kaitlyn either cause she's probably working. I don't think I have talked about kaitlyn but she is my bestest friend in the whole entire world. No one else can compare. She has always been there for me and I am so very thankful for that. Well, at the end of the school year last year she moved to Mass. It was probably the hardest thing that I have ever been through. It's not like I'm in love with her or anything. It's more like she is my long lost sister, now taken away from me. If you take a dull blade, cut open your chest, and then use that same blade to cut off half of your heart, and then sew everything back together with a dull, rusty needle, that's how it felt when she moved. I still remember the hours of crying that I did after she left. I still miss her a lot but we've been keeping in touch. Now that she has to work two jobs while going to school to help her mom out with money and stuff so I haven't had time to talk to her that much.
That's mainly my delima at this point. But I'm not complaining. I really don't have anything to complain about. I know I'm going to get some amazing things for Christmas, cause I went with mom to buy them, and I actually got to have a true best friend and know how it feels to have someone that understands you, and I am talking to this guy and he is so easy to talk to and makes me feel warm inside. I know this sounds like teenage puppy love. I'm not quite sure if it is or not but I am definitely willing to find out. I have so many things to be thankful for, how appropriate seeing that Thanksgiving was just yesterday.
School is going pretty well. I have A's and B's in all of my classes except English, which is such a trifling class. Drama is getting on my nerves though. I don't know why but everytime I go in that class I just get agitated and then I get a headache. It's all good though. In the end I know it will be all worth it.
I have to admit, though, Governor's School is still quite stressful. For some reason I just can't perfect the music that we get in chorus. Also, even though I know it was for good purpose, they didn't cast me in Leiderabend and it kinda hurt cause they casted people that I knew I was better than. Still, I think it was probably for the best. I will have more chances this year, hopefully.
I just finished watching Enchanted, because there isn't anything else I have to do, and I have to admit, it was a pretty sweet movie. It really makes me want to have that kind of happiness in my life, which makes me kinda sad seeing that that might never happen, but it also makes me hopeful that somewhere in the future I might be able to have at least a little piece of the happiness that they had in the movie. I would definitely watch it again.