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So, in life things happen that catch us by surprise, and not in the good way. They hurt our feelings, crush our hopes, and kill our dreams, but, in the end, it turns out ok. Now, I'm not saying that the end will come soon, not at all. It may take years to recover from some things. Everything happens for a reason. Now, I have been having to say this to myself for the past few days cause just recently my boyfriend broke up with me. It was really traumatizing cause out of all of the boyfriends that I have had, which is quite few actually, I really had felt that he was the one. I know it sounds super teenage-ish and all of that but he really made me happy. There was just something about him that made me want to give him everything that I had, and I did. But, in the end, I just ended up with nothing but a broken heart. I don't regret it though. I wouldn't change a thing cause what we had shared was something that I wouldn't give away for the world. When I was with him I felt the most alive that I have ever felt before. I felt whole, unbroken, ......free. Free from judgement, free from fear, free from death. It was one of the best things that I have ever felt in my life. I guess that is where the expression "It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" comes from. It is very true. If you ever find that feeling, try to never let it go cause it will mean so much to you when it is gone. It meant the world to me. He meant the world to me. Now, we are still planning to be friends but I don't think it will be the same. In my heart I still love him, but a relationship takes more than the feeling of one soul. A relationship is one whole feeling between two souls sewed together by unconditional love.
Even though all of this has happened I'm not mad. How could I be? I got to experience love on a level that few people ever do. I may be broken for a while but my heart will heal eventually. It's already healing thanks to the support and care that I have recieved from my best friend for the past few days. I don't know what I would do without him. But, I think things will get better. They always do. Everything happens for a reason........