Lately I've been feeling used by my friends & family. Ever since I got a car all people seem to do is call me for a ride to school or a ride somewhere. Hell it's been going on before I even got my car. It just feels like people in my life are just using me for something. When it's Christmas time everyone assumes that I'll pay for gas or for food or whatever it is they need. Or they automatically assume I have the money & they'll show up unexpectedly... I'm tired of the assumptions & I'm tired of feeling like I'm being used cuz people have been taking full advantage of the fact I'm a nice person. I just feel extremely unappreciated & unwanted. People will call me or text me saying they have a problem & they expect me to fix it. Just on New Years my friend Mike texted me saying to watch his girlfriend & this guy Shane to make sure nothing happened between the 2 & there wasn't a thank you or anything for doing that for him. Then when I told him what was going on with her & how she hated it when he did that, I'm the one getting yelled at for being the messenger. I just feel like if I did die or if something would happen to me that they wouldn't care. Hell no one would probably care if i did die, cuz right now I'm living & breathing & no one cares about how I'm feeling or what's going on with me. It's all about everyone else & if I have something wrong with me then I'm being the big baby or I'm being the jerk cuz I want to focus on my wants & needs. God for bid something actually is wrong with me & I need help trying to figure out why my life is falling apart more & more each day...
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