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I have been so blind this school year, I've been reading Le Mis and finally have found a line which to attach my own personality to a character to a book for I can closely relate to the character Jean Valjean. I have loved all and been casted out, as a "Criminal" I believed that I could fix things through the use of evil, but found that I am too easily deterred. Then one of my friends tells me that she was dumped on the last day of the school year before. Not wanting to see her upset, I willingly placed myself in the role of the "rebound guy" unfortunately, the plan seems to of caused more harm than good. After that, I lose a friendship over something that did not happen and will never be friends with that person again, which ends up destroying half of the plans set for the friend that I went out with near the beginning of the school year which in turn, ruined a portion of her birthday plans. Am I the root of all problems or is it the overall nature of the human being? Why must everything that I plan backfire? Am I the definition of "Murphy's Law" (Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong)? Wo ist der Goodwill verschwunden? Es hat sich in die Hölle.