I finally told the guy I like I liked him. Yet why do I feel this way? Why do I feel the minute he makes up his mind he's going to reject me like every other guy and and put a whole in my heart. I feel like crying but my throat hurts too much to bring tears. I don't want him doing somthing he doesn't feel comfertable with.....but.....I'll.....
Why can't I just let this feeling go and accpet whatever he has? Was it because I was bullied by only guys in my junior days? My heart hurts to know that even if he did accept me......that.....I would know....that atleast, one guy on this earth who the same age as me won't hate me.....I just feel scared thats all.....
My heart cried out to guys as I saw everyday in the hall the same thing. And now I'm on the brink of being heart broken because I had to tell a guy, two hours away from me that I liked him.....will I even see his face?
Will he see mine? ugly as it is...
No...this is the fate for every girl who gaia dates. But.....I don't want to just date him over gaia! I want to actully meet him. No I'm not a rapist! I'm a 16 year old thats been bullied over elementry and junior high!.....I want to see him......I don't want him to hide in the dark thinking that this is impossible since we live in two differen't countries.....because I see a american....not a alien from another planet. I actully do care about him.....not like I don't care for my friends! I do! he just makes me feel.....differen't than other guys....
I'm rambling again....I should stop.....
~Silver the adopted princess of hyrule.
 Silver2oo2 · Sun May 03, 2009 @ 05:25pm · 1 Comments |
