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Honestly, when will it? I'm ******** sick of crying myself to sleep every night. I thought I was feeling a lot better, and then what? Out of nowhere I start feeling depressed, wanting to take my life, and crying my eyes out. Is it really that hard to forget someone and hate them so much you never think of them again? Honestly? I'm sick of feeling like I'm alone in this cruel world. Unless I'm around people I feel like nobody cares about me. Okay, I guess I should be more specific. Unless I'm around Steven, I feel lonely and like nobody cares about me. Ugh, I dunno what to do. I just wish I could fall into a coma and wake up not remembering anything. I wish I could wake up and not know anything about my past so I could move on without feeling any sort of guilt or regret. My eyes hurt already. I've spent the last hour crying, and I have to be at work by eleven tomorrow. It's gonna be a long a** night. *sighs* I do feel slightly better now though. I just wonder how long this will take. I'll probably start crying again soon.