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I've finally realized what everyone has been trying to teach me about relationship my entire life.

Usually, when something clicks, it's like the final piece of the puzzle I wasn't able to figure out, and then I can see the bigger picture for what it really is.. which is always a good thing.

I was talking to chloe today, and I saw her exhausted.. and I finally realized, it finally clicked -- she's just a kid. I'm just a kid.. I've been trying to force us into this super serious adult relationship that most adults don't even have... I'm trying to force us into ANIME-esque relationships, not a real relationship..

So I finally understand what she was saying all this time about not focusing so much on the future, and about taking care of myself.. it really isn't blowing me off and saying that we don't have a future together, it's just more of, "we're still so young why make it so complicated?" we have our whole lives ahead of us, and here I've been trying to force us into something it's not.. ~sigh

I'm happy though, now that I -FINALLY- understand, I can chill a bit. I don't have to be obsessive (I've begun bordering obsessive lately) and sit there, trying to make sure everything she does is perfect, making sure everything I do is perfect. It's nice to have plans for the future, but I can't force the future on us.. for someone who believes in fate so much (me), I sure do like to try and force things on others. I've relaxed, and I'll let things go as they should. I'll enjoy what we have while we have it, and let everything progress naturally, the way it should. heart