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Sometimes, having a sixth sense is a b***h, you know?

I knew chloe had done something -- or she was going to do something, and it was tearing me apart.

She finally told me.. the first rave she went to, she tried X. She promised me she'd never do it again, and she was never going to try anything else, ever.

I believe her.

My gut tells me, I can trust her now. My heart is a bit weary -- but where would I be if it wasn't?

I'm just.. so happy I know. I had a loaded gun pointed at my head for so long, I've been so terrified.. and now it turns out the gun wasn't loaded to begin with, that it was test fired, and emptied.. and so I didn't have anything to worry about.. but I'm just so glad we worked through this..

I didn't spaz.. I didn't cuss at her, I just sat here, very upset...but I knew it was coming, I had braced myself.. and I'm okay now. I know she wont' do anything anymore, I know she won't leave me, so I don't have to worry.. I can totally trust her now. I can.. I just know I can. It's instinctual.

I'm shaking.. fighting back tears. She was crying after she told me, I know she was. She blamed it on allergies.. but I'm smarter than that.. my mom used to pull the same stunt.. but it's okay. I know she's just so happy that I don't hate her, she's so relieved that I understand, and I forgave her... and I'm so happy that it's all over, that I don't have to worry any more.