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Alright, so, I'm pretty immature.

This is a fact.

What's also a fact -- my mind doesn't work like 83% of everyone elses.

I'm mature about certain things, which seems illogical... "If you're truly mature, it isn't on a case by case thing.. it's just.. in general." No, not for me.

I have to have epiphanies.. which I do, actually. I have them now and again, and that's when the world just makes sense.... and then everything is good in life. I understand oh so much about people and the world then, and I eventually mine away at my newfound knowledge.. but gaining the knowledge itself adds maturity to me..

In the only way I can think of explaining it, is like "leveling up". I basically have enough situations occur, that when I do think deeply about something, I basically "level up" on it, and finally the world makes sense.

I'm working on some of my worst issues right this moment... my worry issues. I'm very, very very quickly getting over them.. because I've been given the tools. Well, technically, I always had the tools, but they may as well have been glowing lumps of plastic when I'm trying to disassemble a rocket.. it just didn't make any sense to me.

Sadly.. I may have to begin heavily relying on Neena again.. well, not so much relying on her, as rebuilding my happy place.. which I've been very reluctant to do, because in my mind, my happy place is always my memories of chloe.. but I can't control my memories, I can't suggest they do this or that.. c'est la vie~