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chloe got home late, etc. she got on earlier, went back to bed, had a semi-good time.. going to another rave in oct..

for some reason, hearing that she was going to another rave made me very anxious.. and I dunno.. I'm sure if anything happened, she'd tell me, because she knows I'd worry if she didn't... I dunno.

XP I dunno what's causing this, it's not really a gut feeling, just random anxiety.. it'll probably go away, idk, i'm just blah/eh for no reason really

oh well I'm going to distract myself and wait for her to get online or call or something

update
eh.......... we were talking on the phone.

still, no gut feeling that anything is bad, just random anxiety, like, heavy anxiety, thinking about her going to clubs/raves... -sigh- .____.;;; I don't even know why...

update2
I thinkk the guy who kissed her at the rave may not have just "kissed her on the cheek" like she said... I mean, hell, it's possible, but if he was high then I kinda doubt it... but yeah, I dunno.. I MEAN, if he kissed chloe on the lips, or frenched her or w/e, I wouldn't be mad AT HER.. I'd just kinda like to know, but I dunno, I doubt that happened, and I'd hope if something did, or something else happened, that she'd tell me XP

It feels good to just put it out there though, to get that thought out and w/e.. XP

update3
ok.. I dont guess anything happened.. (still haven't talked to her, she's going to shower and do all sorts of stuff)I dunno..

I just feel uncomfortable thinking about her going to clubs, and raves and all that.. I don't know why..

It's cool though, she likes dancing, and I know that.. and it helps her a lot, to dance...so I just don't say anything.. I mean, my petty insecurities shouldn't stand in the way of something she loves... but still, I'm just... I dunno.