I talked to my other friend...finally... and she thinks I should give him a break. He's probably busy and such and I should forget about him for a while and just do my own thing. This guy in my Bible study asked me if I wanted to maybe hang out sometime. I might just take him up on that offer. Get out of the house and actually talk to someone, feel wanted.
If something is important to you, don't you try to make time for it, not matter how busy you are? Wouldn't you think that if you loved someone, that you would make time for that person?
If he forgets me now, forgets to check up on me, forgets to talk to me, forgets ME, what's to make him not forget me later when it's more important?
I don't know what to do anymore. I was dead set on possibly breaking up with him, at least separating from him for a while to make him think it out that I am not going to take this anymore and if he cared, he would make an effort to change. But I'm so confused now....
I know I'm not perfect, far from it. But at least I am recognizing my faults and am willing to change. I know that I am oversensitive and I jump the gun too often, but I am working on that, have been....I'm sorry to all I have hurt. I'm used to being alone, so I'm not good with people...yet. But now that I have friends and someone who...used to love me....possibly still does, I don't want to go back to being alone. It was a sad place to be in. I'm sorry for hurting people and for putting people through pain and annoyance....
But that's me. Take it or leave it. I know I'm headstrong and independent and too pushy sometimes. But I'm also kind and loving and trusting sometimes. I'm fun and I like to laugh. To get one side, you have to take the other. If you can't handle it, then maybe you shouldn't be around me.
That's all I have to say for now.
CassiopeiaDraconis Community Member 
|
|
