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Well, I just got my TABC certificate. I completed the exam with a 96%. Yay.
(TABC is basically a license to sell booze in texas.)

Start training tommorow.. very, very nervous about it.. I'm getting up at 5, showering, getting ready, then heading over there around 5:50 or so.. (doesn't hurt to be early your first day.)

Things with Chloe.. are.. .. eh, I don't know how to put it..

I can't put into words what our current bond is.. we have a complete understanding.. especially after what happened with Mel.. .__.'' (I don't want to put it here. I don't want to talk about it, and after this, I'm never mentioning it again. I don't ever want to think about it again, she pissed me off, she's a stupid skank, I hate her.)

ANYWAYS..

I don't know. I know we won't be dating any time soon.. but.. It's kind of okay now. I don't know why.. but it just is.. after what's been happening with me lately, I think it's kinda for the best anyways..

Also.. she may be able to visit still.. and if she does, yay.. that'd actually make my life, and I'd be so ******** happy about it, simply because she's such an amazing friend, and I've missed her so badly.. but yeah, I'm not bringing up the trip anymore, not around her, since I don't want to discourage her from coming. I'm also trying to not cross the line in intimacy with her.. because I really don't know what that line is anymore, and I don't want to ruin whatever closeness we have.

Me, personally.. I really don't know what the line is regarding me. I kind of don't care what she does.. since I'm fine with everything.. but only if it's her. No one else. I don't even want anyone else to hug me, or even think about hugging me. I don't want affection or closeness from anyone, but her. I kind of hate affection and love right now.. but for some reason, its okay when it's her.

I don't even want Neena to be close with me. Ky is okay.. Ky understands.. no one else though. None at all..