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Good thing that my family doesn't play Gaia. Please do NOT tell anyone ANY of this information, especially my family.

Well, recently my mother was getting REALLY stressed at her job. She is a hardware consultant. Her job is VERY hard to do. Her company throws her tons of work to do that she can't possibly complete. It stresses her very much. She has to take medicine to keep her calm. I recently found out she almost had a heart attack. T.T So my mother just walked away from her job...just quit. The company is most likely to fail without her. She is the one who carries out all the work.

I am glad my mom is away from work. Her health is more important than money...but still, selfishly, I wonder how we can support ourselves without her working? I heard that we may not be able to afford our house if my mother doesn't work. This scares me. I also over heard that my dad wanted to buy my mom a new camera for Christmas but may not be able to afford it. This scares me. Maybe I'm selfish for this?

My mother doesn't want me to worry about money income and such. I tell her "I don't"...but secretly I do. I just had to write this out. I needed to get these feelings out. I feel so selfish worrying about money. My mom saids she is going to find another job...but what? What will she become to make the same amount she made before? >.> I secretly knew that my mom made more than my dad...without her...the pillars under our money income crumbles.

I'm very nervous about this as you can tell. I wonder how Christmas will be like? Will there be nice gifts as usual? <Yes, selfish I am, I know sweatdrop > I recently got some money for my Birthday...what am I using it for? Christmas gifts. I still want this to be a good Christmas for us all.

There is still hope! My mom's career field she worked in is much in need. Maybe there will be something for her? Maybe something easier? But of course I think, How much will it pay? My mom saids that God will help her. He will help her find something she loves. :3 I hope, I pray, that God will help us.