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Thinking about Chloe.

Well, more, my relationships and the future..

I'm not going to settle.. ever. like, I mean, I'm not going to just be.. "Ok" with who I'm with.. if I'm not happy, and sure that I want to be with them... then.. I'm just going to leave them.

I don't know if Chloe &I will be together in the future.. but I'm planning for a future alone now..

I'm going to try to move near her, just so I have a friend.. just so I have someone in the world.. but if that doesn't work out.. I'll just be alone.

I don't want temporary relationships, I'm becoming more and more, a "all or nothing" type of guy.. sort of, "Don't sign into the contract if you aren't ready to commit".. I'll have sex with someone I love, we'll do the fun, relationship stuff.. but I'm not going to commit to anything SERIOUS, like, very serious "omg we share the same cup, lets co-sign on a mortgage" type thing, until we're both sure.. (me and the girl, that is.)

I keep thinking of the dream I had, where I was having sex with Jessica.. I kept thinking in my mind, "No, this is wrong.. I can't cheat on Chloe.." but then I thought, "Maybe she's my true love.."

That dream wasn't implying that I want Jessica though; she represents the unknown.. lust, females I've never met.. possibility that I may have locked myself down too soon.. so.. I'm just going to be single now. I'm starting to feel "single".. and.. It's not as bad as I remember. Neena is getting over the shock of losing Chloe, (so cute) so we'll have eachother.. and I guess that's all we really need.