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Was talking to Chloe on the phone~

Okay, ofc. I'm going to post this first, but mainly because I just love talking about things to myself~ XD

But um yeah.. Chloe said that without me, she'd probably occassionally use drugs.. and blahblah.. and i'm like.. it makes me happy, and sad at the same time..

Happy to know I'm an influence in her life, and that my trust in her is well placed.. but at the same time, sad because it means that in a moment of weakness.. she'd turn to drugs >.o..

I'm also thankful for her, because I've been thinking about going to a rave.. and one of the main reasons I was thinking about going was to try X. (Oh noez, Lilly is so bad~) I'm glad I didn't get to go to a rave though.. and she even said it herself;

It'd be a thing where, it was really amazing, I'd stop for a long time, but then I'd be like "wow that was really fun.." and I'd be tempted to do it again.. and knowing myself, I'd say I'd quit after the first time, but myself control teeters when it comes to certain situations, and I'd more likely than not do it more than once.. which is probably a good reason for not ever doing it to begin with.

However.. I am still curious about the effects... and so I kinda do want to try it still.. but I probably wont..

I've always been curious about how it'd feel, and everyone tells me I should try it atleast once in my life... but I'm like, "nah.." I don't want to be like, "oh hey lets keep doing this s**t biggrin " type of person and blah.. .___.;

She's going to live with her mom for a few days while things blow over at home, she's having a tough time, and I can't say I blame her.. things are kinda shitty for her, and it's just blah..

It's times like now more than ever that I want to be there for her.. x.o.. I know I could live with her, no problems.. I'm pretty much oblivious to everything in life, sadly XD so I can tolerate anyone.. and yeah... x.x

eh.. xx I miss her, and she misses me... so close to being with her forever.. 6-7 months... -sigh-