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Okay, every big chunk of info to post here.

I'll start with Shaelynn and her bf.

Okay, so I know this guy, Ernie. Me and him talk somtimes, blahblah. His gf, Shaelynn, I work with.. basically ernie was hanging out with his ex instead of hanging out with shaelynn, just because he's that way, and she got all suspicious and thought he was cheating.. he texted me, explained it all too me, and was like "= = ehhh" and I was like ".. D: -pats-"

Then shaelynn came up to the shell mad because I was asked her what was up with ernie, (playing stupid) and we talked, I basically explained to her that if he had done anything, he'd be bragging to me about it (true) 'cuz that's how guys are, but he didn't, so he didn't do anything. I said, "I'd trust him, tbh" (which I would) and she started having second thoughts.. she left like ">.o"

Don't know what's going on between them now.. not too keen on asking since I kinda don't care lol.. their teeny drama made me laugh though.

Now for the shitty stuff. Dad~

He's losing his leg. The doctor's told him today.. (I'm not sure if it's 100% true, because he likes to overexaggerate.. but yeah...) he said the may ALSO have bone cancer... and that when they take his leg, he'll probably be in the hosp. for a month or more.. (Oh, I can hear him on the phone -- "they don't know what they're going to do yet" so yeah, he was full of s**t.)

If anything does happen to him and he has to go to the hospital for a month though, he said he'd leave the kids with me... -_______-''' I'm sitting here thinking... "UGH. NO." If he dies, I'm NOT ******** taking care of the kids. ******** THAT s**t.

That'd mean I'd have to take them with me to missouri, no. -____-''''''' I'm not their daddy. If he dies, I'm taking off. My aunt and uncle can take care of them. I'm not a ******** parent, I'm not going to BE a ******** parent for a long time.. so no. ******** them.

I don't care if it's immature, I don't care if it's selfish, I don't want to be their ******** parent. I'm ******** 21, I don't have a license, I don't have a well enough paying job, no. I don't have s**t. I don't want to be a parent, I don't want to raise them, and I'm not going to. If my aunt/uncle try to pawn the kids off on me, I'm going to have to put them up for adoption. =/

Cold-hearted? I don't give a s**t. My aunt is in the medical field, and my uncle.. I don't remember what he does. He's a repairman or something. They have more than enough money to take care of 2 kids; if they don't want to, tough s**t, I honestly CAN'T afford to raise 2 kids.I make less money a month than my dad gets in his SSI checks, and he can barely take care of us, so yeah. -___-'

Plus, I have plans. I don't want to live in this shithole forever. I want to leave, I want to be FREE, I want to be with a girl I love and tell the rest of the world to ******** off and die. Ugh.

Oh yeah, something completely minor and non-important in comparison to the above --

Chloe's getting 2 lip rings and a nose piercingggg.. x.o..

I don't mind the nose piercing, really.. just the lip rings.. I'm like "it's your body.." but I'm thinking, "ughhhhhhhhhh" but then part of me is like "idc it's not important, ******** it all" and i'm like "ok thats how ill be" but yeah, I'll get over it, since she's not going to keep them forever.. blah..