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(venting because i got woke up and im pissed and grr = =)

eh = = what the hell do i doooooooooo

leaving now would be a waste of effort

sticking around will only hurt

what do i dooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ehhhh = =

"only for me to decide" or w/e.. but eh

its not even a deal of "if you love her, you'll stick around".. ******** a, lilith only knows how much i love her... but sometimes no matter how bad you want it to work out, the only thing to do is let them go..

sigh........

i havent brought any of this up around her because obv im being anti-drama for her

whatever i choose to do, im not going to tell her

antiiii dramaaaa

i wont even know myself...

do i want another girl who isnt chloe, do i want whatever else (i know what im talking about) or do i want my choe..

is she even the choe I know anymore.. she could be this entirely different person now, in choe's body.. she somewhat acts like the choe i know, but i don't even know.. maybe it's stress, maybe it's some other stuff just wearing down on her.. (so I've been anti-drama for her, i've been keeping all this bullshit out of her face because the damn girl doesn't need this bullshit) just bleh. . .

oh what the hell.. that's a retarded thing to say.. in a way, I know her better than anyone else.. but i'll never know every side of her, no one will.. I guess I figured out what I'm going to do..

not going to post it here incase she reads this journal

don't want her to know, either way it's drama for her, so i'm not going to bring it up