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I keep having dreams about Chloe, drugs, work, and all that.. but the worst part is waking up and having my feelings remain the same...

Had a dream that chloe was talking to me, she kept trying to get me to drink this weird drink (no drugs) but I wouldn't, and she got upset, and took off..

When I woke up from that dream, I had felt the same way I did in the dream.. entirely apathetic; I couldn't care less what she felt..because in the dream, I had finally gotten fed up with her bullshit, with her treating me like crap, only because she knew I'd accept it and not yell at her.

I had a dream about drugs.. I kept smoking pot, then I started doing coke, x, basically everything I could get my hands on... in my dream, I thought, "I ruined my life...." and then I killed myself. When I woke up, I felt the same.. except I haven't y'know, done any drugs. I just kind of don't care about it anymore.. I kept trying to freak myself out, tell myself "maybe Chloe's tried something!", just so I could feel SOMETHING! but nope.. I just don't care anymore. Drugs are whatever to me now, I don't care if anyone does them anymore.

Dream about work was very boring. I was at work, doing my own s**t, then a guy from work called and woke me up, asked me questions about stuff. Meh.

I'm basically.. emotionless right now. I don't know why. I don't think anyone had anything to do with it... i'm just... hollow. I don't really care about anything anymore, I don't care about the world..

Oh yeah.. the dream where my grandpa died.. he's going to die soon though, very soon..