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Listening to: "Alone with the Sea" -- Hurt

meh.

Typing because I'm in a semi-bad mood.

Also, chloe rolling her eyes at me pissed me off.

anyways, I'm thinking more and more I was right in my private entries...

Maybe I shouldn't move there after all.. this negativity could be because i'm upset, so maybe it is, maybe it is.. but earlier in the day, I had resolved to go there no matter what...

I don't know what's going on with me anymore.

having my emotions back is nice, sucks that getting my feelings hurt is one of the first things that happens though, but meh.

Maybe I'll just move out to a beach or an island or something, and grow old with the sea. It sounds so miserable, thinking about doing it myself.. but the thought of me as a character, it fits perfectly..

The thought of someone else who's me, but not me right now, it's a nice thought.. but the thought of me, who's me now, no.. it's horrible...

I want to live within driving distance of the ocean now.. so when I'm in this kind of mood, I can be alone with the sea... the sea and the moon.. are those the only two things I need in my life..?

I think they are..

I'm a true cancer, then... I don't like to be submerged, just near the water.. maybe instead of moving to missouri, I'll move to corpus.. the rest of the family is moving there anyways.. why not.. right?

Or maybe I'll try and find somewhere cheap in cali, somewhere within driving distance of the ocean... I'll spend any time not working there, alone.. I just want to be alone.. I don't want anyone else around me...

Living on an island would be nice.. then I'd be alone for sure.. I dont want people anymore.. they're just frustrations and dissapointment.. people can't ever make you happy..the only thing that could ever make you happy would be being alone...

I think that's what I really want in life.. to just be alone, with the ocean, and the moon.. I'll find a way to make a living near the ocean, I'll do whatever it takes... but that's my goal in life, to be completely alone, with the ocean, and the moon.

I'll work during the day.. then at sunset, I'll get off, and go sit on the beach, and be alone..

That's how I want to live the rest of my life, alone...

I don't want anyone here anymore...