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if my brain is so ******** up, that I can't even let chloe be gone for a few days without crumbling.. I don't know what the ******** I'm going to do.

I'm going to let myself be a burden.. -__________-;;

UGH.

SO idk.. eh.. if this is something I can't overcome.. then.. = =;;;;; I may just let her go free.. because EH I dont want her to feel like shes' trapped, I dont' want to trap her, i don't want to be blah and EH = =;;;

sadly I started thinking "maybe ill just start drinking or doing drugs so i dont even think about it anymore..." = =;;; I WONT, I never would, I'm just tired and randomly lonely and it pisses me off that I might have something permanently wrong with my brain