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I'm going to make an imaginary worst day ever, and so from then on, every day I have will be fantastic, compared to my imaginary day.

Forcing optimism on myself.

The worst imaginary day ever:

Chloe leaves me, for a guy I hate, then they get busted having sex, -SHE- gets sent to prison, and dies.
My dog gets poisoned and dies slowly with me holding him.
My iPhone gets stolen.
Frost tells me he never wants to speak to me again.
All of my friends abandon me.
I get banned from all my websites.
A hacker steals all my money from my bank account, then ruins my credit within minutes.
The govt. puts me under investigation for all this, and then tells me it looks like I'll be going to prison as well.
My shoes get eaten by rats.
I get called in to go to work 4 hours early, with no shoes.
I step in broken glass.
The time goes by slower than ever, and I get fired.
Dad dies, and it turns out I have to raise my brother and sister alone.
Neena suddenly vanishes.
I get hit by a car, but only hurt enough to be hospitalized, to run up major bills, not die.
I get sued by the guy who hit me.

That's pretty much all i'm going to post for now..

BUT IF I'M EVER HAVING A BAD DAY, I will look on this list, and be thankful that none of it is true. It will make me realize that the small petty things that went wrong with that day are meaningless, and it could be much worse.

I will be thankful that I have Chloe.
I will be thankful that she loves me, and somehow manages to put up with me.
I will be thankful I have a job, and friends.
I will be thankful I'm in relatively good health, and living a pretty nice life.
I will be thankful that soon, I'm going to be living in California with the love of my life. (Seriously, that's like.. a ******** dream come true! Living in a awesome place like Cali, with the girl you love?!)
I will be thankful I have spiritual guidance, and someone to keep me safe.
I will be thankful my family is alive.
I will look back at this list, and be thankful for all the little things in life that I do have going right for me.

I'm going to pull myself out of this rut. No more defaulting to negativity. With all the wrong in the world, I have to go back to my old ways -- staying optimistic, no matter what. I have to remind myself, it can always be worse, and be happy that even though things are seemingly unbearable, at the end of the day I have so much to be grateful for, it makes up for the little annoyances in life.