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now she wont let me go.. meh..

nothing can ever go my way.. i'm more or less "tied to the bed" in our little world.. but not in a "OMGSEX" way, a ">:I YOU TRIED TO DO SOMETHING STUPID YOU'RE STAYING HERE FOREVER" kind of way.

I'm annoyed... so annoyed.. nothing ever goes the way I want it.. she's holding my tight.. and as she does such, my friends begin to reveal that they really do care, even though a lot of the time it feels like they're only talking to me for the sake of talking..they just really care about my feelings and don't want to lose me, so they walk on eggshells around me, or stop talking to me altogether for periods of time..

neena is heavy..but very warm. it's bright here, but i can sleep here too.. i'm sleepy, so very sleepy.. i just want to pass out for a while.. nothing this year makes sense..

neena wont' let me deal with life my own way, she's forcing me to do it her way.. and literally forcing me..

she won't let me push chloe away.. chloe's journal entry scared me so I tried to push MYSELF away.. neena said no, that the comment I left on her journal was the right choice of words, and that chloe should know that she's no long ALLOWED to be alone...

Neena is taking this all into her own hands... if chloe tries to be strong alone, we will ambush her and make her be strong with us.. I mean it can't hurt, to have our strength added to hers, right? it'll reduce the strain..neena just really wants chloe to accept us as part of her, now.. as odd as that sounds..