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Hmm.. I don't know why, I just feel the need to write... I had a very strong "ugh I need to smoke" feeling.. But I don't smoke and I promised I wouldn't, so I won't. X x I have a lot of faith in her... I just want to play it safe for a while, you know? She gets it. I keep having stupid fears too... She told me she doesn't listen to anyone, and I believe her... But then part of me know that includes me... Shes super curious about this one drug, and....I'm kinda worried shes going to try it. I mean, shs said before thats too long to be on a trip and all.. But eh. x x

I guess I'll make the compromise of, if she really wants to do it, then I'm going to do it with her... Shell probably say no, but thats the only way I'll be comfortable with it...

Ehhh..I'll do it for her.

Really though...I'm just going to have complete faith, because after her? No one. So... If she loves me, which I do believe she does, she wont hurt me. If she does..? Oh well, I'll survive alone.

Really though...x.o as 'tarded as it sounds, id be ok with her doing lsd if it was a one time thing, and I was there doing it with her. Only way.. I know it wont come to that.. Because she loves me, and shes drug free; so I'm just talking out loud to get it off my mind.

^ ^ I'm happy now. My faith has been restored.