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I do think that I'm stuck with myself and my inability to move forward. Coming up on the age of twenty, and I still have never had my first real job. I do believe that it's all because of my own insecurities. It's like I'm up against this giant, invisable brick wall that I cannot brake down, and even if i try to start to make a crake, and I stumble even a little bit along the way, I back out instantly, and that little crack fills back in. If peple were to say just one negitive thing abot me, I feel completely broken, and all I would want is to run away from it all. I want someone to hold my hand, and tell me the best thing to do for me. Someone to be there for me to fall back on. Someone to catch me if I begin to fall down.. I know that even if I find someone that would be willing enough to hold my hand along the way, that they wouldn't be there all the time. At some point, I'll have to deal with my worst situations all on my own, and do my very best to handle them. I'll have to figure out how to do it all on my own. I knwo I will stumble, and I'll have to look really stupid, like I suddenly forgot how to tie my shoes in front of a croud of people, but I think that I can be okay with looking like the biggest dumby one the face of the planet. Nobody said that looking stupid is wrong. You wont get in trouble for looking stupid. Just as long as you know that you're trying you're very best in your worst situations, that's really all you can do, and all that will count.