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chloe hates me
we broke up
got suspended at work
she said we're not going to cali
any time i tried to start explaining things on the phone it only made her cry worse (i was very tired so my words wouldn't come out right but still)

so

everything went down the shitter pretty quick.

she said she wishes she never loved me

whats the most ******** up about all of this is, im still numb.

i cant feel pain...

she didn't get what i said when i said i'd fix everything.. lmfao.. i'm the problem. remove the problem and you have no problem.

she doesn't want neena either? fine. we'll let my logical side be the dominant personality, while "fun" james withers and dies. I don't care anymore.

I have to go back to beig alone, but my heart is so hardened, it's such a rock now, that I can't cry, I can't be upset...so I'm going to move.. I have money saved up, I'm moving soon.. going to live near a beach.. since i can't exsist, i'll just let the ocean shape me.

I'll work when i need to, and just live on the beach.. I already know where, my aunt has a place up there... and yeah.