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o o; well i'm fine and all right now.

chloe is gonna go out tommorow with her old friend and do a anime meet up and meet new people. it's good for her, she needs to meet new people and blah. o o..

me, idk, i don't really have an opinion on it. like..

ok, being completely honest, it makes me a little meh, because I don't want to be alone. BUT, i'm not going to say anything to her. o o' just because i'm not UBBERLY meh, like a little bit, but it's not a big deal to me. It's not like it's going to kill me or anything, and I think she needs to meet new people more than anything.

plus what she said really hit me hard a while back. that I cling to her so much.. and so, i'm going to be super non-cling. o o' even if it hurts me a LIL bit to be non-cling, it's not worth making her miserable just because I have abandonment issues. I need to work through my own s**t, and I'm not going to drag her down. XP

That's why I'm venting to my journal instead of telling her, too.. everyone needs their alone time, everyone needs their space.. and I understand that better than anyone.. sometimes I cling too much when she needs her space, sometimes she clings too much when I need my space, but we're pretty good about giving eachother alone time.

and tommorow is going to be "alone time" for her, so I'll just have to get over it. XP

the more i do it, the more i'll get used to it, and the less it'll bug me o o..


atleast she's not like sary, where she sary told me flat out that she didn't want to hang out with me and she'd ditch me for her friends if she had the chance, because she needed her "girls night out".. yeah.. what a ******** b***h.

I understand needing time to just hang with your friends and no one else.. but flat out telling me that you're not going to be around me because i'm not important enough .. ******** you.

but she ******** me over a lot. she lied to me, a lot. she made promises that she broke, and she generally just ******** me over. meh = =

I'm too good for sary, though. I always was. I'll never forget her, only so I can remember what I left behind, and so I can be so grateful for what I have now.