So yeah, here's the other thing.
I feel bipolar at some points. Of course I'm not but still. One day I'm perfectly content with life, so happy it's scary. Then another day I'm confused, doubtful, and I feel like doing something stupid. I hate those days.
They bother me too much for anything. Today is a bad day, I'm confused. I found out yesterday that my mom and one of my best friends were planning a surprise birthday party behind my back. I do, really do appreciate it and I feel ungrateful for kind of not wanting a party. I hate parties. Any party, I hate them. I feel so uncomfortable during them, and I want to crawl into a little hole and stay there. Basically;
I'm a hermit.
I would be perfectly, no, over joyed to be able to stay without all that much physical contact with anybody. Of course I like talking to people, but being around certain people makes me feel uncomfortable.
The second thing that is bothering me has to do with James. I guess it's two things in that subject. One is that he is coming to the party Saturday, and my dad is still unaware he's my boyfriend. There's only one more day until my dad goes to school, and of course we have to have the party the day before that. My dad leaves Sunday. So I'm completely spazzed about that. The second thing is that, I don't know what to talk about with James. We've got nothing to talk about. So what do I do?
These things are making my time right now very uncomfortable, annoying, and other things I am at a lack of words to think of. Great, just ******** great. I hate being a teenager sometimes.
Zombie Doll` · Fri Mar 31, 2006 @ 04:52am · 0 Comments |