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Oh Hurricane.
It makes me so worried about you.
I hope the power doesn't go out.
I hope I don't lose internet connection.
I really hope I don't lose service on my cellphone.

I just miss you I guess.
I hope you're not fretting immensely about what I said.
I'd just rather see your face when I talk about these things.
You're a much better person when its as close to face to face as possible.

I cried for like an hour today.
It was really weird.
But I feel like I have a lot to cry over.

I took her advice and decided it was time to let you both know what's running through my mind.
As expected, the first attempt wasn't a successful flight. It never is.
Hopefully, it's much easier with you.

Because I don't want to cry anymore.
But I'm so scared of what's going to happen.
Of what's already happening.

My heart feels so different at just the thought of you.
I really do believe I've fallen in love with you.
It scares me. Because I know you don't feel the same.

But it's time to "dtr" as Awkward stated.
I need to figure out exactly what I am to you.
Exactly what you are to me.

I'm afraid you'll tell me I mean nothing.
Or I'm just here for a good time.
For your pleasure.
At your expense.

That really scares me.
I'm so terrified.
I need to figure out what I'm going to say.

I wish I could really say this to your face.
I really wish I could, I really wish you'd hold me and tell me I'm just being silly.

I need you so much right now.
I feel like you're the only thing I can count on right now.
Even though I know I can actually only count on myself.

I miss you so much.
I just want to lay with you and talk or watch a movie.
Or make breakfast with you and then go play basketball.

I love having you nearby.
It's better than any ecstasy you'll ever find, to me.
I can't wait to talk to you, really.
Can't wait to feel like we're really catching up.

Can't wait to tell you what's on my mind.
Can't wait to figure out a plan.

Hopefully my second attempt at flight goes much better than the first.