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Going to be moving into Dad's house again.

Not that bad, since we won't be homeless... but I don't know where we're going to live. Don't want to work at the Shell anymore..possibly getting a job with Tony in SA.. That'd be.. nice. :/

Sadly, my biggest fear right now, is videogames. -_-;

I know it's stupid, but they're my main concern, because when s**t gets bad, and I mean REALLY bad, I get super sucked into games and suddenly I can deal. It's my biggest hobby, and it's my main way of coping.

If we're stuck in the living room.. I'll move s**t around, and set up my computer in there somewhere, I guess. I'll atleast have my monitor out so I can play Skyrim and Kingdoms of Amalur..

I know money is tight, but I can't stop thinking about games.. I guess it's a coping mechanism.

I'm worried about having to live with Dad, too. I know it'll be alright eventually.. but I don't want to be there for a year or more. I'd like to maybe be there a few weeks, months, tops.. but I'm not sure how everything is going to work out. Especially jobs.. the job market in Sabinal is terrible.. you just can't get a job anywhere there, except for at the Shell.

I know that if Martha is the manager, there's a much better chance that working there won't suck nearly as bad as it has, especially if Doyle doesn't work there anymore, but I still hate the supervisors and s**t.. :/

Ugh if Martha is the manager, there's a much better chance that I'd get to work there full time, and that she'd hire me back on the spot (assuming I could), but I really, really don't want to. I know Chloe said she'll do it.. but I'm worried about the kinds of people that go up there. -__-; It's a small town, and people tend to hang out up there.

Hell, my biggest fear, honestly, is Dakota. I can deal with people like that all the time, because I'm ******** AWESOME. But.. :/ I don't want people like that hanging around her. He's just a bad influence. Same with Jose, actually. Jose is a ok guy, he's not bad or anything, but he's just not a good influence.. plus I don't want guys up there hitting on her or trying to do s**t to her -_-; I don't want to be sitting there with her all night every night just to make sure people leave her alone.. especially the drunks.

I know she'll be ok if she does end up working there.. but still. Hell though, maybe Martha wouldn't put her on nights, and would only have her on days.. they usually put the guys on nights anyways, just incase. Nothing that bad ever happens.. but it's still good "just incase".

I kind of wish Future me could just end past me an email.. somehow.. or.. a journal entry, or a letter, or SOMETHING. Be like, "HEY PAST ME, HERE'S HOW s**t WENT DOWN" just so I wouldn't stress and wonder.

Mainly over videogames, because I'm pathetic. -_-;;

Plus side: Going to sell/ship my LEGO soon, so thatll be +$200 something in chloe's account.. I can pre-order Amalur from Gamestop or something.. maybe. who knows..

Speaking of Skyrim.. starting to get bored with my Pally. Thinking I'll be capping out around lv. 20 (even though i'm already lv. 31) is just a bummer. I don't want to cap out TOO low.. hitting the cap of 81 is a bit ridic., though. 50 is just right ;D

BTW Chloe, I know you're going to read this eventually, so, hi. Just venting, stressed, as you can tell.

12/2/2011, today's date. Just so you know when I wrote it.

That friday we were watching dexter, my sister's birthday. You got sick on KFC. :p