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Dad is stuck in the hospital, likely for 3-4 months now. Wonderful.

Brother won't be going to college out of town after all, so he's going to be here. Probably forever :I

Nothing to look forward to in this town anymore. Nothing to keep me motivated to try and stick around that little bit longer, something to give me an excuse for being stuck here. "Oh I'm not stuck, dad just needs help.. besides, matt will be leaving soon!" or "I can finally leave, dad is home!" etc.

It sucks that me &Chloe have to take care of alexa. I love her, she's great, but ******** we can't do anything now. One of us has to be home with her, because Matt is unreliable. :/

Dad won't get his leg cut off without a hell of a fight, so he's going to be held up in the hospital, likely for 3-4 months. I'm tired of having to put all my plans on hold for everyone else. If Chloe applies at time warner, I will too. If we get hired and dad still isn't home? Oh well. I guess Alexa will move with us to SA until dad gets home. Tired of feeling trapped here. Honestly right now, I don't even feel trapped with work.. I just feel like i'm stuck in this shitty town again. I want to leave.

I'm going to leave, actually. Regardless of how they feel. :3

Barry is likely going to join the army soon. So much for moving with us. I'm not going to tell him that though. No reason to drag him down.. he has plans for the future, and that's a good thing too. He needs SOME direction in his life.

Also pissed off that matt is telling everyone dad is going to kick us out soon, etc.

I know I shouldn't let it get to me, but hearing that just really irked me. I know if I asked dad, he'd say "what? No I'm not kicking y'all out, I'm sick of matt and blah blah" but I bet he turns around and says the exact same thing to matt too..

I don't know. If dad is playing both sides of the field, I wouldn't be surprised. I know how he REALLY feels, so I don't know why he'd be playing both sides of the field.. :/ Maybe he's just trying to cover his bases incase we leave? lol.

I'm just venting. Sick of this shitty town. Sick of my brother. God damn I cannot wait to be free of this place. Everyone is irritating me. I'm tired of being taken advantage of. I'm going to lose my cool pretty soon, and start telling people how it really is. :/