It's a shame really.
Today I was digging thru the piles and piles of emails in my inbox trying to find the emails I used to get from an online Japanese school I took lessons from. I really want to start that back up.
Well turns out years of cataloged emails are too much for my curiosity and I got to poking around. They say retrospect is 20/20 and let me tell you, 100% valid statement. A lot of links, to a lot of conversations buried on this website there, and a lot of memories that had completely gone away came flooding back. A lot, of really awkward, very public conversations. And holy s**t can you say desperate?
Tact was clearly not a word in my vocabulary for a period of time around.. Shoot, like a year and a half or something? To your credit you did try to tolerate it. Like a sober person humoring a drunk, but for a years worth of time. xD Jeez, seriously my B. I wish I could go back in time and be all like "Come on man, you've had enough, let's go get you some water and sleep."
It is almost flattering how long you put up with it for, and again, I'm over here being entirely ignorant to the things you begrudgingly did for me.
I'd like to thank my brain, my hormones, and my circumstances for allowing me to deliver such a truly horrendous performance. I couldn't have done it without you.
That being said, it has been a startlingly long time since this all occurred, and the window in which one can come and say "I'm sorry about that, I was drunk and stupid and let's just move on and be friends?" has come and passed.
I'm just putting it out there that I did eventually enjoy that light-bulb moment where you cover your face in embarrassment and realize how uncool you really were. Like that pikachu outfit I wore for Halloween. And the week before and after it.
So ya. I had a metaphorical few too many. Sorry I ruined a lot a lot a lot of things. I clearly suck like that.
Not that you'll ever read this. Consider this more for my own comfort, at least this way I can say I tried.
VaughnTophat Community Member 
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