February 11th, 2015
The nightmares have been so regular. I... I don't think I can sleep tonight. Always the faces and the lights. I don't feel like I have rested when I wake. I don't want to dream again. I won't sleep.
I must appear restless, the medical staff have been asking me about my sleeping habits. They have been asking if I would like to be prescribed some kind of sleep aid. I don't want to take it for fear I will not be able to wake myself from the nightmare. I already feel restless. Tonight I won't sleep. I will stay awake through the night.
I don't want to think about it.
My research has been coming along nicely. I feel I have made some earnest progress based on some of the notes the young lady labtech left me before she disappeared.
About that, I have been asking others about the brilliant female young scientist, and no one seems to know of whom I speak. I know I didn't imagine her. We spoke every day for a time. She was very kind and intelligent. Someone like that doesn't disappear without being noticed. Right?
It's very strange.
Her notes have been useful to me. I have definitely continued to gain insight from them into my work. It is a pity she isn't here to help me further.
Still no meeting with this man behind the NeXus compound. I wonder if am not the only one who has not met him?
I believe the nightmares have been having some impact on my condition. I had a small craving today. It was my first in many years. I handled it, and medicated it properly, but it does make me nervous. I will not tell the medical staff. It was only a small craving.
Docta PH34R · Mon Mar 16, 2015 @ 04:20am · 0 Comments |