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I have a feeling no one reads this stupid thing anymore, but that's quite alright with me. I could care less. Besides, no one will want to read this entry...it's going to be pretty sappy. gonk

Well, Ben finally left me. I can't believe it took him this long. I knew he'd get tired of me, and he did. He told my friends that he finds me "boring" and that he was "uninterested" in me. Oh well. He pretty much told me "I found someone better." I was hurt for a while, but now I'm over it. I could care less what he does now. It's quite obvious that he's not upset. Why should I be?

Anyway, I found this great guy. His name is Valtiel. He makes me laugh, which is a great thing. I don't believe I've ever met anyone quite like him before. I miss him terribly when he's not online. He's found his way into my thoughts and dreams lately...It's been hard to not think of him. I don't even really know what he looks like, but I could care less. Looks aren't important to me. I just love him for who he is... I just wish I wasn't such a p***y and can tell him how I feel. What really sucks is that he lives in Ohio...I mean, I could go to Ohio, if I wanted to. No big deal. I have a sister I could easily stay with, and I could drive to see him. I just don't know if he'd want to see me. Hell, I highly doubt he feels the same way about me. There are no words for me to describe how I feel about him...He means that much to me.

I don't know. gonk I just hope he doesn't read this and laugh. gonk I mean...I don't know anymore. I guess I shouldn't even be thinking about getting into another relationship this soon. I have school to worry about. That, and I don't want to pull a Ben...That's just not my style. Well, I guess I shall just go with the flow and see what happens, eh?

With all of that off of my chest, I guess I shall move on to other subjects.

I graduated on the 21st. That was pretty cool. I was pretty stoked. The only bad thing was Ben was there, and he was staring at me the whole time. gonk I only met his gaze once, and when I did, I was overcome with this powerful wave of emotions. It was hard to explain...it was just this jolt that went through my body. I couldn't handle it, so I didn't look at him again throughout the whole ceremony. I guess I was probably better off that way.

I have spent the past several days doing jack squat. I've been working on playing and beating Silent Hill. I'm seriously in love with that game series! Especially with Valtiel and Pyramid Head. They're the best ever! I want to get them tattooed on me. xd heart Though, I have a feeling some people would kill me if I did. >.>

I am going to be starting college this fall at SCCC. I'll still be living with dad and gram, so there won't be any moving or anything involved. I'm going for a degree in CIS Game Design. I am really excited! I so can't wait until this fall! I know, I'm a nerd for actually looking forward to college. xD I'm also dreading it, but that's another completely different story.

I'm going to be visiting my mother this summer. Not sure when though. I know I will be gone for a few weeks. ^^; I don't think I'll have the internet, though I will try to go to a public computer and log on to at least check PMs. heart

Mom said I could fly a couple of my friends down to see me while I'm with her! I already have a couple of people in mind...now all I have to do is wait and see if they say yes. >.> I think it's quite obvious who I want one of them to be. xD As for the other....he already knows who he is. Oh! I also get to see Zira Angel this summer! Woo hoo! We're meeting up at the Omaha Zoo. We are also going to go and eat Greek food afterwards. I've never had Greek before, but Zira swears by it. She says it's delicious. heart

Well, that's really all that's happened thus far. I'm enjoying being 18. ^^ Though, since I don't have an ID of any sort, I'm not able to take advantage of it. Oh well. I'll be able to soon enough. I suppose I should cut this update short. It's quite enough rambeling for one night! I will be updating my Xanga if anyone is interested. Just go on there and search for WoodchuckMachineGun .

Mucho Luvo!

<3~!

Jeannie