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suffocate on the way you remembered me

as i crush your heart because i'm unrecognizable these days.

i know that will never happen, you never got to know the girl that could make friends in any room.

you just see the girl that's hard to get into's head

and i wanna tell you that i love you, but i don't love you

and i wanna tell you that i miss you, but i don't miss you

but i will keep telling you to come back, to come to my home

crawl under my covers and hold me at night

i wanna steady my breathing to the sound of your heart

and i want you to hold my hand and tell me that you've missed me

because i know you miss me, you've already said so,

but i wanna hear your voice say it.

and i wanna hear your voice crack as you keep talking out of nervousness

because i won't reply, because i'm just focusing on your heartbeat

and how good it feels to have you here.

because i'm not a lonely person, but sometimes when you're gone i feel a little alone.

don't think you have any control over me,
i just happen to occasionally be human.