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In my mind, when I saw the path I could take, it branched. I'll draw a picture to illustrate

http://i.imgur.com/8ZBaJ9C.png

The branching paths are optional paths I can take, with the "black circle" being someone I'd be "attracted" to in a soul way, I guess?

Like, I'm not meant to be single, despite my clamoring for it.

It started off small-ish, but that went nowhere (I don't know why, well, I have a few inklings but eh) & that small-ish ness was enough to get me to agree to several things I'd never otherwise do.

Next time on the path it's going to be even STRONGER, not 2x as strong, but 1.5x. If I end up skipping THAT, then the next one will be 3x as strong.

If .. If I somehow avoid THAT... the next one will be 50x as strong, and that's like.. god damn I don't think tha'ts even human at that point, that's basically a succubus walking into your life, knowing literally everything that will make you melt, and manipulating you like a goddamn puppet. Like you would just literally lose yourself in them, they'd have absolute control, they could get you to do ANYTHING, period. Go deep sea diving with lovecraftian horrors? Anything for her~

If ... god damn. If somehow, fate has it that I miss THAT

The next is infinitely stronger than anything else. Literaly by just meeting her, the sheer essence of her presence would be completely and utterly dominating. Without a word, she'd have complete and utter control over you. Across multiple planes.

Now, lets sit and talk about fate for a few minutes.

There are things that are predetermined to happen. There are also branching paths of our life, but you WILL have X by Y.

Lets use the Sephy example, lets say Sephy didn't show up in that chatroom on that day, when me and frost were there. If it weren't her, SOMEONE would have shown up, and we'd have been immediate friends with that person instead. Someone like sephy in our life was fate. It was determined, but humans have an ember of chaos borne within them, so they can subvert fate very subtly. It's nothing like "Oh I can prevent my brother from dying if my husband dies instead" kind of thing, because those are permanent events. They're fixed in that space, and they MUST happen.

There are also branching paths, when life is "slow and dull". Sometimes, even when life is chaotic. You will end up back on your timeline, just with different outcomes. This is where alternate universes come from. There's the you who chose X instead of Y for every situation you've ever made since you were born. You'd be surprised how significantly these things can change.

Now, I know I'm meant to date someone. Grey in my timeline is "I don't know anything past this point". I do know that up until "50x" I will be dealing (primarily) with humans, and so the ember of chaos goes both ways, and it may be possible for me to be single until then.

However.. at 50x, that's when you start getting into occult s**t, people who are like me, people who have crossed the point of no return, people who have done some insanely deep occult s**t and have significant power.

Past that, we literally start dealing with non-humans. Like.. I'd say "infinitely more powerful" would literally be physical Neena. Just by meeting her, that's it. I'm done for, goodbye world. That's how strong her energy is, if she can get people to bend to her will IN MY BODY? Christ on a cracker in her own body she'd be terrifyingly powerful. No limits, nothing.

We'll see where things go, there really aren't many women in my life right now, but then again, I never thought Harmony of all people would show up like "yoooooo whats up" kinda so, I can't ever really tell.

I've considered Cher, but .. she literally isn't even a blip on the radar. Fun while I'm single, dangerous while I'm dating, a good friend, but not someone I could spend my life with.