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Finally got in touch with Jess again, omg it's been so much fun @_@

She's asexual, but she pretty much cybers and does whatever because her boyfriend doesn't care, and she likes to make her friends happy

I'm basically the same, but it's super fun with her because we have a long long history so there's always this sexual undercurrent when talking to her, that I don't have with other friends.

Like, I'm not intimidated by her, and I don't have any real emotional attachment (well, she's like my big sister, and always has been, so eh) so.. no ROMANTIC attachment I guess.... idk, it's weird.

It's just fun talking to her again, we're talking about dumb stuff, and she's the best so yay~

Idk. All this stupid ******** drama with everyone else in my life, it's like I'm trying deseperately to grab on something to keep myself grounded, and everyone just keeps feeding into my delusions, so I finally got in touch with someone to help the world stop spinning.

We talked about relationship stuff too, and basically she agrees that I need someone to keep me on a leash.. maybe not a short leash, but someone who can reign in my insanity and delusions because otherwise, I end up like I am now..

It's making more and more sense, when neena said I'm not ALLOWED to be single for too long.. s**t is going sideways more and more, and it's taking more people to ground me, instead of 1 sole person with their hands on my shoulders, holding me down on earth