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The One Thing
I surrendered my heart;
It was all for you.
I surrendered my sanity;
You had subtly told me to.
I gave up my soul;
It was not enough.
I gave you all of my love;
It was too late to see through my bluff.
You asked of me to give you
Everything that I had.
I gave you all my possessions,
But you still looked so sad.
Is it something that I said
Which made you always act so blue?
Or is it possibly the one thing
I didn't have courage to tell you?
I surrendered my heart;
It was all for you.
I surrendered my sanity;
You had subtly told me to.
I gave up my soul;
It was not enough.
I gave you all of my love;
It was too late to see through my bluff.
You asked of me to give you
Everything that I had.
I gave you all my possessions,
But you still looked so sad.
Is it something that I said
Which made you always act so blue?
Or is it possibly the one thing
I didn't have courage to tell you?
See what loving you does to me? I didn't used to believe it even -existed- but I had no choice but to change that point of view when I realized that these feelings couldn't be anything but that. I had even convinced myself the things felt in past relationships were all just strong attachments, not the love that people say it could have been.
You're horrible for my personal health and mental/emotional states but I still can't make myself quit caring. I wish I could every second of the day and then I realize I'd have no emotion to continue day to day from if I -could- just stop caring at the simple drop of a hat...*sighs and forces a smile*
It's not like you'll ever read these entries, so why should I care if I record personal feelings about my life in here, right? I haven't seen you in a long time as is...
Alright, some people might call me emo over these entries. I, personally, say it's about time I let out a lot of what bugs me instead of keeping it bottled up inside like I usually do. I don't like letting people push me around or trying to be what they want me to be anymore. For once I want something to make -me- happy, and I can't even get -that- because I waited way too long to try for it.
So if you want to call me emo...Go ahead. I -want- to be emo for a change...
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