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Mom and dad called last night to check up on me. It was nice to hear from them, but it makes me wish I were back home again, and didn’t have to deal with all this new stuff. I’ve been keeping busy going to classes and working on assignments, but I can only stand that for so long. In between times I have nothing to do and no one to talk to. I’ve tried going out and mixing with other people, but I never really connect to anyone. I guess I’m a little shy. When I meet people it’s like “Hi, how are ya?” If I’m lucky, then there’s just some meaningless banter which usually gives way to awkward silence, and we go our separate ways. It’s a real bummer, so I always end up returning to my room in defeat.

But, maybe things will be looking up. I had my first meditation class today. Our instructor, or sensei, is Nipponese, and I have a hard time understanding what she says sometimes. We sat on these floor mats and were told to close our eyes. “Relax and feel the energy running through you,” the sensei said, at least I think that’s what she said. Sounds easy enough, but I found it hard to concentrate because of the cute guy sitting directly in from of me. I don’t know his name, but he has the most adorable brown curls. From where I was sitting, I noted some other interesting qualities he posessed, but I won’t mention them here.

Anyway, I should be taking this more seriously. To be any kind of gaiamancer, I have to learn how to be in tune with myself and the natural forces around me. So, meditation is important, as well as maintaining the proper sitting position. We bring our feet together right in front of us, and rest the backs of our hands on our knees. Oh, and “you must keep the back straight.” Sensei said that a lot. I think I will get the hang of it. That is, if I can get that guy’s legs out of my head.