Such an utterly pathetic display, I'm embarassed in myself for behaving in such a weak and feminine manner in front of him. Ugh. Disgusting, to think that simple thing could make me so emotional....a last ******** between us, I tried to shake it off but he didn't leave and when I saw his face again I couldn't hold it back anymore and I lost it...
It seems he took pity in me and managed to calm me down and lay with me for the night...and like an idiot I enjoyed it more than I should have, but it also hurt, having him hold me like that, like how he used to....it felt too good and..I don't want to lose the feeling....
I actually begged at him....I feel like such a fool, I thought I could be the mature one amongst us and be civil but, it seems I am just as emotionally constipated when it comes to matters of the heart, especially mine that I only have opened to select individuals and now it's been wounded again and he'll leave with half of it...
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In the end it seems he cared more for his own needs and self than yours.
I'm sorry, Sesshoumaru-sama. I'm always here when you need me.