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I dont know why all these memories are all comming back right now
why now?...why not earlier...or later...

I remember that when I was in elementary
I would never smile...not even for pictures...
people would ask me why I never smiled
and the response was always the same
There wasnt anything to smile about

this continued for years...
over time I did start to smile
but it wasnt a real smile
it was more to just get people off my case
in other words...it was a fake smile

later on...during middle school
it turned into more of a mask that I would hide behind
I held onto the mask for years...

eventually when I met her
she broke my mask...
and the real me was let out...which really...wasnt a good thing...

slowly I tried to put together the pieces...but it never really became complete again...
not like how it was before...before it was nearly flawless...
this one kept letting myself out...and I didnt like that...
but its better than nothing...and it kept the other people arround me happy
so...I kept it...