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What I'm feeling now: Unsure, insecure, alone, unloved, unwanted, depressed, sick, disgusted and angry.

Song of the moment: Armor for sleep - The truth about Heaven

Ok, so a recap of the past few weeks.

There was a school dance which I had to leave early... no one really came so it wasn't that much of a bust. So the week after that I'm out collecting bugs at my school for biology withmy friend Shane, Tyson said he'd come and help. So I called him to say that I was out and ask him if he was coming. He said he couldn't and I understood that because it happens alot, so then I asked him if he was coming to the stake dance that night, so this is where my day started going downhill. He's like "I never said I'd go" I stayed silent for a second just because if I said anything I would've killed him.

So then he's like "Oh wait... I did huh? Well it's not my idea, but I can't go." well.. that kinda set me off, so he tries to explain and I hang up on him. That night I'm kinda depressed you know, cause this isn't the first time he's bailed on me. Happens all the time, but oh well. So I didn't really let it show that I was upset, cause I'm the hyper one... everyone's crying shoulder, I can't be depressed over a guy... it's just not done. So durring the prayer((Yes we have prayers at stake dances... I'm mormon.. deal with it.)) my "friend" Breya gives me a wet willy and I squeak.

So yeah my friend Amanda C. goes and gives her a high five after the prayer, she's soooo mean to me, durring choir she grabs my knee and makes me squeak. Anyways, so everyone started teasing me and of course there was the question "Hey where's Tyson? Wasn't he gonna come for once?" yeah well that just upset me even more so I ended up running away from my friends. One of them however (Shane) was right on my tail, he ended up catching me and dragging me back to the group. I got away however and started running again, I turned it into a game of sorts and called one of the chairs safe. Well, there's a line of chairs almost barracading this bush... so I sit on one of them, it fell backwards and I landed in the bush. Nice huh?

So everyone is trying to help me out of the bush, meanwhile my arm is getting scratched up. *sighs* Anyways I ended up going home, moving on. The play tryouts and Shakespeare competition things came. Of course I just had to try out. Didn't get in though, suprisingly Sheraya(The slut whore cow) got into the competition. Guess I'm not good enough, well I got into competition callbacks... and apperantly I bombed. I don't care though. She raya was being a whore though, cause these were my first callbacks and I was all hyper. So she comes up to me and says "Just cause you made callbacks doesn't mean you're in it." and I was like I know, dont' be such a whore. So while she's telling me this, she's been off telling everyone else she's already made it... hmm.... wonder how she knew. Either way she known to do ANYTHING to get into a play... ANYTHING!!! So whatever she did to get into Shakespeare she threw her hip out doing it. eek wink LE GASP!

So before that she was in my drama class AND my P.E but after she threw her hip out... "Running" she switched from P.E to health. A bunch of us have our theories of how she threw her hip out AND managed to get into Shakespeare. Hmm.... it vexes me so. stare wink Just kidding.

But now for the disclaimer, I'm not going to become a Sheraya just to get into plays. It's not worth it, I'm never gonna become a whore just to have my way. Once again, not worth it. I'm not going to become her because I've seen how many people she's hurt in her quest for whorieness.