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So...I lied.
I'm not happy like it seems I am.
I put "xD" "8D" and all those other text smileys up when I talk, just so people don't ask if me if I'm okay or not when I don't post 'em. It'll seem like I'm the same happy ol' person when I act normal with putting up faces and shat.
Yeah, so? ...I hide behind a smile or two, hoping that the sadish emptyish blank feeling would just wash away. It worked before, and has been working. But I don't get why this time, it's not 'just washing away.' But it's not you. You didn't do anything, don't worry.
I'm sorry I lied. You ask if I'm okay, and when you manage to figure out I'm not okay, I state some other reason as to why I'm down. Yes, I refuse to tell you the truth, because I don't want you to worry...Hate me or not, I'd understand. Hehe...
I've been totally out of it for the past few days. And I tell you this, dearries, I'm not okay...It hurts everyday that goes by that---that I can't have the simple joy of being with someone - someone - that I...*sigh* DAMN I SUCK. YEAH. :D
I'll shut up now...and apologize...
----sorry I've lied for the past few days :...I'm actually not all "8DD!! YAYYYY. x3!! YEAH WHAT NOW, YO" like I seemed online for the past few. I guess I'm not the type of person to just..express..heh. Well, if you read it all, this is what I managed to come up with...yeah.
Baibaiiii.
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So...I lied.
I'm not happy like it seems I am.
I put "xD" "8D" and all those other text smileys up when I talk, just so people don't ask if me if I'm okay or not when I don't post 'em. It'll seem like I'm the same happy ol' person when I act normal with putting up faces and shat.
Yeah, so? ...I hide behind a smile or two, hoping that the sadish emptyish blank feeling would just wash away. It worked before, and has been working. But I don't get why this time, it's not 'just washing away.' But it's not you. You didn't do anything, don't worry.
I'm sorry I lied. You ask if I'm okay, and when you manage to figure out I'm not okay, I state some other reason as to why I'm down. Yes, I refuse to tell you the truth, because I don't want you to worry...Hate me or not, I'd understand. Hehe...
I've been totally out of it for the past few days. And I tell you this, dearries, I'm not okay...It hurts everyday that goes by that---that I can't have the simple joy of being with someone - someone - that I...*sigh* DAMN I SUCK. YEAH. :D
I'll shut up now...and apologize...
----sorry I've lied for the past few days :...I'm actually not all "8DD!! YAYYYY. x3!! YEAH WHAT NOW, YO" like I seemed online for the past few. I guess I'm not the type of person to just..express..heh. Well, if you read it all, this is what I managed to come up with...yeah.
Baibaiiii.
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