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it really hurts to be hated.some times i get this feeling.......its like im going no where but im going everyywhere att the same time.it dosent look like it but alot of people are very depressed.you can only notice it when you are sitting alone and it is very quiet.you start to see the whole picture and everything starts to look really crapy you think man.....things eally suck and then the worst part happens. the deep dark blue of the nothingness starts to creep up the corners of youre mind and you can hear all of the souls screaming and you want to cry them all out but it is a deepness beyond crying.and then a thought pops into youre mind.you think...will they ever notice if im gone?.....wil they ever know thta it is all becuase of them that my own self and the deep blue of nothingness huants me in the corners of my mind?and then when everything starts to dull out and the blue darkness gets closer and closer and you dont want o be engulfed by it you want to hurt yourself you want to see the red trickle.yoou want to feel the pain.you want to see if reality is still there .you want to be reminded that god did this. he set youre soul on the earth becuase he loves you and nothing is going to go wrong.and then............nothing.

sammy skullz