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I want my hearing back. You have no clue how bad.
This damn ear rupturing thing, yea its not working out for me.
I was always known to have great hearing...
I'd be the kid who could sit away from a couple people,
but could tell you everything that was said.
But no, not any more.
Right now I can't hear s**t out of my left ear.
Only thing I can hear in it is my heart beat.
Yeah...my heart beat.
Do you know how lonely that can make someone feel?
Sitting there in a crowd of people,
everyone's talk is muffled,
constantly having to ask "huh?" or "what?"
only hearing the beat of your heart,
as you realize...you're alone.
I didn't ask for this damn ear problem,
course no one asks for any of the s**t that happens to people.
The doctors told me my ear should be back to normal soon,
that was a couple days ago.
I want my hearing back in my left ear.
The beating of my heart...steady...
when I move around alot...it gets faster...
thinking of the person I like...
.....it beats faster.
I can only cry so much,
and listen to the beat of my heart so long.
I'd rather use this time,
to listen to others speak,
which now I'm slowly being deprived of.