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I've been wanting to do this for a few days now but i never got to write in my journal because my comp wouldn't let me. But now i can biggrin I had the worst day but it ended up a night to remember, why? Becasu my precios baby girl was getting a bath and i was giving it!! It was memorable because it made me relize that life can be hell yes but through all the pain and suffering, it still is worth living from start to finish.I mean a baby can seem so happy and content and innocent and it made me see that even if most of my life was hell and tourture, i can still remember all the little happy time's i have actually had. The past, present and future are dark for me but at least i had some glimpes of light in my mind from my o so dark life. But besides that giving a little thing a bath has semi changed my outlook on things, no matter how dum it seems, although she was sooo adorable whee I couldn't help but smile as she splashed and played around in a tub like it was the best thing that has ever happened to her biggrin whee However i still have little or almost no love left in my heart, but i shall never forget the joy a baby bath time has brought me.

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